Tuesday, September 25, 2012


I have been a Foster Parent for 3 months.  I have biological children ranging in age from 23 down to 9.  Needless to say I've been a parent for awhile now.  I love each and every one of my children and would lay my life down for them.  I love them, each and every one of them, every day of my life.  I can't imagine not having my children. 

Currently we have 4 foster children.  They are 10 months, 2 years, 5 years and 8 years.  I look at these precious babies and realize that out there in this world right now is their parents and they are not with them.  They don't see them on a daily basis, they don't talk to them on a daily basis and sometimes not even on a weekly basis.  I don't understand where you have to be in your life to not have your children.  To have someone else determine you are not a fit parent.  To have a check list to get these children back in your life.

Recently I found out that our 10 month old 8 year old are about to become a big sister and big brother.  I am so confused.  I don't understand how when you have lost two of your children you simply replace them by getting pregnant.  Is it to hard to follow the orders you have been given to get them back?  If it is so hard to get them back should you be allowed to keep this newest baby?

I don't have the answers to these questions and for that I am thankful.  To understand these questions means that I have slipped into that mentality.  Instead I'd rather be the one who these babies turn to when they call out Momma and I'd rather be the one there for them day in and day out.  In the mean time I hope these parents figure out and remember what they have lost before it is to late for them.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Chinese and Karma

I have a doctor's appointment today.  I'm not necessarily excited about this appointment.  I don't want to know what I weigh or how my blood pressure is doing.  I know these things.  I am overweight and my blood pressure and I aren't friends.  I have 6 kids in the house.  Of course it is a little high.  Do I exercise?  I ask if this is a trick question.  I don't per say exercise but I do chase around a 10 month old, 2 year old, 5 year old, 8 year old, 9 year old and 11 year old.  I think that should be an Olympic sport.  Every mom in the world would qualify and somehow every mom would win.  We are the masters of this new art form. 

So knowing I have a doctor's appointment and knowing how it is going to go what do I do.  I order Chinese for lunch.  Yummy Hunan Beef and Egg Rolls.  It sounded good at the time.  I knew Karma was coming up to bite me hard.  I dripped the oil from those egg rolls all down the front of my shirt.  So now when I go to the doctor she has proof that I also eat very bad for me food and also happen to wear some of it.

Who knew Chinese and Karma were synonyms!!